There is a desire to leave a legacy for our children. We want them to know how much we’ve loved, sacrificed, and broke for the sake of their growth. We want to remember the little moments that felt like our heart would explode in love and pride for them.
My Mamahood sessions are about leaving a legacy for your children. Letting them know just how much you love them. They are telling your story and legacy of motherhood. The story you write in the small quiet moments just before bed, the hours helping with homework, driving to all their games just to be their biggest cheer leader, late night feedings, and patients to stay calm when they pull every toy out of the bin and every cushion off the couch. It is your chance to tell them in words and photos that you love them to the moon and back.
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This is My Mamahood to my two beautiful babies, Delilah & Crosby.
We waited two long years to have you, Delilah. Two of the longest most painful years, wanting so badly to be a parent and not understand why we couldn’t. When I tell you it’s hard to wait now, I want you to know I understand waiting. I understand wanting something so badly that you’re life feels like it’s on hold until you have it. I know what it’s like to cry hot wet tears because it feels unfair. I will tell you each time that the wait is worth it. That God knows the right time ALWAYS. And there is always something to learn in the waiting. Sometimes you just don’t see it until it’s finally over.
I don’t want to grow old to regret the early years of your lives. Being a parent is and will always be the hardest heart work I ever do.
The day you came earth side Crosby I knew my plans are nothing compared to what God plans. You have been a sweet, giggly, snuggling little boy that I never knew I needed.
I wish I’d known how hard this journey would be. But I think it’s impossible to adequately express and prepare for the unknown. Several dear friends tried to tell me, but truly you don’t know until you’re walking the road. The hard parts can swallow you whole when you aren’t looking. It’s easy to believe that life will always be this hard. I’ve had to learn to crawl out into the sunshine. You’ve both taught me to be grateful for the little things, the moments that stretch and challenge me. You’ve taught me it’s all part of life, the good and the bad. And the bad really isn’t that bad, it’s just a matter of perspective.
Dinner time is sacred in our house. Every moment could be chaotic and rushed leading up, but the moment I sit in that chair and look at my beautiful family, I breath a deep soul filling breath of love. Of course with small children dinner has had it’s challenges, but it still is my favorite part of the day.
You both make me a better human being. You have opened parts of my heart I didn’t know I was holding closed. You continue to challenge me and deserve the best version of me I can give you. You are human just as I am, but your unconditional love and ability to go from screaming to kisses constantly astounds me. You have a talent for finding my hot spots and exploiting them. Without a doubt when I’m feeling less then my usual happy joyful self, Delilah, you will test my patients and push the limits till I crack. Every time it happens I dig deeper then I thought I could muster and come out the other side a little wiser and little calmer. At the rate you’re going I’ll be a zen goddess by the time you’re a teen, lord knows I’ll need it then.
xoxo – Your mama
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