Project 52; Week 4

Being a mama is a work in progress, even a year a later.
I’ve had a few conversation lately about a piece of you dieing when you have a child.
There is a transition that happens when you have your first child.
A transition that I honestly had no idea would be as hard as it was. And honestly didn’t know it happened till months into being a mama.
Delilah, some day I hope you’ll be a mama. I’ll tell you it’s the most amazing thing in the world.
I’ll tell you it’s also a journey. A journey that can’t be planned or predicted.
Parts of your soul will change and mold to accommodate this new little human.
You’ll change in really good ways, but it’ll be a hard change. Change is always hard.
Your pre-mama self will die.
What takes her place is a self that will lay everything down for the little human you created, no questions asked.
And you will wonder how you ever survived without this little human by your side.
You have made me a better person, a more compassionate person, and more soulful person.
You did that.
I’m sure this journey is just getting started.
You’re growing more independent and opinionated every day after all.
Your daddy and I have to set boundaries…never thought that would be as hard as it is.
I love watching your personality develop and discover new things every day.
What an amazing and special little girl you are and I am so grateful you chose us.
Beyond grateful.
Happy First Birthday little peanut! We survived and thrived!
Thank you for being such a sweet, opinionated, loveable, snugly, determined, lover of animals, and hilarious little girl.

xoxo – Your Mama