Project 52; Week 34 Potty Training
I’d consider myself a pretty chill mama. I don’t get worked up about most things.
We’ve been talking about and prepping you for potty training for a few weeks. You’re showing all the signs, and well Grandma says it’s time.
So here we are, puddles of tears on the toilet. Both of us.
Please tell me I’m not somehow damaging you with this…because my heart breaks when you cry like that.
There are moments during the day that remind me I really have no idea what I’m doing. Moments where I feel completely unequipped to deal with the days challenge. I feel heavy with the responsibility to raise you and get you to adulthood in one piece. All the while knowing in someway I will leave a mark on you that I wish I hadn’t. If there was ever a time to give myself a large dose of grace, this is it.
I have a habit of charging into new things with an air of confidence and ‘I got this’ attitude. No matter the challenge, I’ll remain calm and we won’t have any problems…right? When things inevitably go off the tracks, I’m left feeling betrayed and crawling under the covers to make it all just go away.
Heavy dose of grace.
I forget sometimes that there are other souls in this challenge. Your will is strong and you’re learning thousands of things a day, potty training is just one of them. Finding a balance of parental support and knowing when you’ve had enough, is a tight rope that I sense I will be walking for the rest of my life. Giving you the responsibility to use the potty is huge to your little mind. You are growing up and turning into a miniature adult. I forget that sometimes. A part of me still sees the helpless baby that needed me for everything. And you still need me a lot, but this is the first time I’m really facing your independence with shock and awe.
We’re still in the trenches of potty training. But I know that we’ll navigate these waves together and learning the lessons they are trying to bash into us. So maybe your sibling will be easier.
A mama can hope.
xoxo – You Mama
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