Project 52, Week 42 Life Before You.
I got to thinking about life before you the other day. Honestly it’s hard to remember and I wonder what I ever did with my time, because life with you fills my days to over flowing. Even as you get older and you already don’t need me as much as you once did. You can play by yourself for hours some days. Life before you was centered on business and my income/client goals. I filled my days with work and evenings being with your daddy. I dreamed about traveling and what the next project we would do on the house. Then we decided we really wanted a baby. And along came you after waiting longer then I would have wanted.
You burst upon our world like a comet. You rocked us to the core and rearranged our life, priorities, and hearts so that you were in the middle. Just as it should be. It took time to find our feet and able to walk again with confidence. What a different person I am then I was just 2 short years ago. You have already been my greatest teacher. I thought my own parents would always have that role, but I’m finding a new reality. It’s not until you become a parent yourself that you understand things on a different level. Everyday life takes on new meaning and even the small moments can mean the world. I never paid attention to those small moments before. The quiet moments your daddy and I had before you were just tossed away. I didn’t think they mattered. But they matter so much, and I see that now. A few minutes rocking can put you at ease and back to playing like nothing else. Without those tiny moments, you can have trouble cooping with this crazy mixed up world. It’s small moments on the weekend where we have nothing planned and nowhere to be. We just hangout together as a family. You always entertaining in some way. It’s quiet moments like these that always bring me back to what’s important, and it’s not business goals. You’re constantly reminding me that I don’t have to struggle if I just relax and go with the flow. Watching you learn new things is a life lesson in it self. It’s never forced and never under stress, you learn best when it’s fun and on your terms. I’m slowly learning to stand with confidence and learning that no one knows a child like their mother. I’m so grateful for you and the way you have cracked my heart wide open. I’m grateful you choose us. I’m grateful you’re so full of joy and compassion. I’m grateful I have you as a teacher.
xoxo – Your Mama
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