Project 52, Week 45/46 A family of 4
I’d like to say I’ve been so busy that I missed a week. We were just so crazy….but really we’re not that busy. Yes we have things to do, but really it’s my own tiredness. I knew these few weeks between Thanksgiving and Christmas were going to go fast regardless of what was packed into our calender. I knew I was going to have to be extra vigilant in doing my usual routine or things would fall off my radar. And guess what, they have. I haven’t taken photos this week. I didn’t even manage to write a post last week. It’s the end of the year and I’m feeling the weight of this past year and expectations for the next year heavily on my heart lately. This past year has been really pretty amazing. You and I found a rhythm and routine that worked so well. I could finally feel like myself and focus a little on something beyond your needs. I could work. I need that work my love. I love you and love spending our days together, but I need my work to be the best mom I can be. I have big dreams for this little business. This year I felt for the first time a real sense that I knew what I wanted. With a new year on the horizon I find myself dreaming of what it might hold. All the milestones you’ll make in the coming months. How much more can your personality grow? What will you find fascinating? I can’t wait to dive into more art and exploring that only a 2 year old can do. I also wonder what adding a sibling to our family will mean. Will you adjust well? Will I have time to work? Will it be a year of finding our feet again, like 2013 was?
I felt your little brother or sister kick for the first time just yesterday and I couldn’t help but think about when you were in my belly. Feeling those first movements and wondering what the future held for you. I know this next year is going to be challenging in new and different ways. I know you’re world will change. I hope that I’m giving you a friendship that will last a lifetime and long past when your daddy and I can’t be here. You have such a big heart and already empathize with those around you. You worry if we’re upset and get so excited when we’re happy. Your mood changes right along with ours. Understanding others is not a trait easily learned. This little sibling is one lucky little babe to have such an amazing big sister to look up to. A sister that will no doubt love and protect them for life. A sister that already at not even two years old knows just how special people are. Here’s to a year of finding what it means to be a family of 4.
xoxo – Your Mama
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